Love Will Never Happen In My Life

Hello. You can refer to me as Die. It is a nickname that my best friend calls me a lot and I sort of got used to it. I am a female and currently 18 years old. It’s weird how when you turn 18 people think you’re automatically an adult and you can do whatever you want but that’s not how it usually goes for some people. I still consider myself as a teenager and not near close enough to be called an adult yet. I consider an adult to be someone who has things straighten out in their life but I, on the other hand, am a mess. I make things that are so simple into very complex situations, I over analyze every problem and I don’t know how to fully express my feelings. It’s very hard for me to be happy all the time even though I am mostly considered very sweet and nice to my friends and even strangers. I have no idea why it is so hard for me to express anything. I hate crying in front of people, I hate hugs and any sort of touching unless I am the one offering and I am terrified of falling in love with someone. Believe it or not but I haven’t had my first kiss yet which I think is something to be proud of. I created this account to just let out things that happen in my life or what I can never say to anyone.